thoughts of a nobody.

i dont understand....
how my life stays running.
the point of homework.
why im always tired.
how gummybears are gummy.
who made the word gummy.?
why lights are so bright.
why you cant just want me.
why everything i ever look forward to comes crashing down.......
goodnight.
done blogging for a couple days.
goodbye.
ready for school.

just another day.

gonna do my homework. psych paper. child development paper 1 & 2. lets not forget the english paper. fml. :\ oh well. only a coouple days til i see the most amazing guy in the world!!! :) I CANT WAIT!!!! be back later. maybe.

monday nights....

the most boring ones of the week. then there is friday. it'll be one too live for. i get too see john. its been over a week now,, since i saw him. idk what too do that moment i see him. sometimes i just wanna run and jump into his arms....but he makes fun of the way i run :P sometimes i wanna grab him in the biggest hug possible, which isnt a great hug cause im not powerful at all :( so my possiblilities wont make him the happiest.... hmmm...... maybe i will do something a little bit more simple. or maybe, i wont do anything and see if he makes the first move. which im sure he will. :) he's gonna gt so angry when he sees what movie i picked out too watch :) i pickedthe princess protection program. baha. joking. :) i cant really tell in case he reads this. i hope he likes the movie ;) im also sorry for making this such a long post. but my thoughts are all jumbled up, and this really sorts things out. and keeps me from spilling the weekend plans too him. :D
well imma go too homecoming cornation maybe?!?!?!
adios.!
i love you john :]
goodnight.

3685.

well hey there john :] i bet your gonna read this soon. I just have a feeling your typing papers :] lol. :) imma go too mi grandmas and eat some cupcakes.!!! I cant wait. then imma keep studying my psych stuff. :] i love you to pluto and back one million times. that is my favorite planet ya know :P do good on your papers. all is well here for the most part. :] i will see you so soon :]:]:]:]

not topic. :]

Im just not in the mood too make one up :P im just sitting here, wondering. does he think about me alot? i also think he is deeply in love with me. At least as far as i can tell. :] I have noticed that the days fly by, i think its because im looking forward too seeing him. I let my mind wander and it always comes down to all these what ifs.... :] what if he asks me one day. what if he comes back on a surprise visit. what if he wants too cuddle for hours. well you get the point. i have happy what if thoughts. :] thats what i should name this title...what if!!! oh gosh, imma work on homework. i hate homework, but i wanna make john happy and proud of me for doing it :] i love you johnathan kyle kneip <3

girl meets boy.

she falls head over heels for him. they fight and fight. she still loves him. he usually still loves her. she wants lots and lots of friends. people too hangout with. all girl nights. thats the fun stuff.i quit. goodnight.

one way or another......

im gonna getcha. im gonna getcha getcha getcha getcha ;] Going to bed. Just finished cleaning the room. must finish up on this horrible homework :\ it sucks. oh well. good grades. gonna do it for john <3 im going too see him this weekend :] imma surprise him big time. imma look so cute:] ah. its gonna be amazing. i hope you exited honey :] i've never spent this much time picking out an outfit :P I love you john. Goodnight :)

dot dot dot. :]

Today was confuzzling. :\ I hate days like these. but i really enjoyed most of it.! I Loved Cuddling With My Boyfriend! :] It's Gonna Happen Again. :]:]:] I love you john <3

bedtime.

Im uber tired. i wanna see john. doubt hes coming home though, hes usually busy. :\ it would be an amazing present if he surprised me though :] andi can write this because i know he hardly ever reads this anymore. hmmm. i wonder if he'll ever write about me....night! <3

worthless night.

I'm studying for my stupid ameican government test. im realy sidetracked though. I'm begining too wonder if im really all that important to him anymore. sometimes it just doesn't seem like it. i give up on homework for tonight. That's all for now...... goodnight. :\